Tuesday, January 23, 2018

Annaliese Ursula Ludwig Wallace

My arms are open
Come as your beautiful self
Should you ever wish to be true to
Life, to you, to us.


And in case you forgot...

Annaliese. I do love you. I do want you to come. If I could, I would pick you up and bring you here. I wish I could have done that a long time ago. But I can’t. I can’t bring you here. I can’t kidnap you. You have to bring yourself here. Can you do that?

You told me you were an independent person when I met you. Show that independence, and act independently. Come here, if it is truly what you want. I hope it is. I want you to act true to love, if it is true love. That’s what it is to me. I also want you to have faith in me. That’s the only faith that really matters to me, and that’s the faith I want to have in you. But I need you here.

I will help you best I can once you are here. I will marry you if you truly love me. But I can’t go through any more conversations endlessly circling without anything happening. You have to act on your own behalf to get here if you want to be here. Do you want to be here, with me? There are no guarantees in life. I don’t know how everything will turn out. But I do love you. I do want to care for you. Can you be tolerant of my thoughts? I am rational, and reasoned, but I am also emotional. I love you. I want to see you happy in life. I want to care for you. I want to hold you. I want to be your’s forever.

Annaliese, I’m sorry I can’t communicate until you are here. It has been too damaging all that has happened so far. I can’t stand you being apart when you could be here, but still talking to me. I can’t stand all the reversals. It is too painful and everything said now seems hurtful. I apologise also for all the things I have said that have hurt you. They were said to try and end the hurtful situation that has so far had no good end, but I would far prefer a good end if possible. If it is possible, then I really need you to show me you can take your own life in your own hands and do what is right for you, if being with me is that. We will need this in our own relationship, if a loving and strong relationship with me is what you want.

I know that an independent, individual Annaliese is a good person. I know that you are intrinsically good, on you own, as you are. I know it. I see enormous potential in you. You are gifted. I would be privileged to be with you and help you realise your gifts. I would like to do that. I would love to do that. I love you.

If you can make it, I am here. I hope you do turn up on my doorstep, or anywhere I am. I love you.

Ben Duncan Ludwig Wallace

Saturday, September 16, 2017

Fulfilment with love (to ourself and others)

Fulfilment without harm has a bonus in that it also allows us to assert that we should also refuse harm to ourselves (not just to not harm others). However, fulfilment with love is more active in the sense that we actively love (i.e. grow, cherish, help), rather than just not harm, others. This is also a positive. But does fulfilment with love have the assertion to not tolerate harm to ourselves?

Yes, if you include ’self-love’ in fulfilment with love, and we should. So if you read fulfilment with love, as fulfilment with love to others and yourself (meaning that you do not harm others and do not allow others to harm you, because you love others and yourself) then that would work. But would that necessitate that you love yourself more than others?

No, you can love others as much as you love yourself, but not more. This means you would not harm others, as you love them, but also that you would not allow harm to yourself, even if this means resisting the harm from others (you don’t hit back, but you do restrain their efforts to hit you; you don’t attack back, but you do negate their attacks on you). More than not harming others and yourself though, or allowing harm to yourself or others (note that this aspect means you should intervene in a non-harmful way to protect others from harm, which requires a lot of courage), you also love them, so you help them, cherish them, grow them. (Note, it follows from all this that you do need to love yourself first, though not more, in order to love others.)

Obviously all this is relating to all this: The Common Purpose Manifesto


Sunday, February 26, 2017

These are my mantras

I'm not sure why I'm sharing these.

They feel more personal than anything else I ever have. But maybe there's some reason to. I constantly review them.

We are 
All children of life (be it, see it).
I am
True (to life, to love, to myself, to others).
Strong (thru humility, integrity, and love).
Real (me, authentic, loving, good).
Whole (child-self adult-mind parent-able).
One (align’ with life, harmonious, natural).
Healthy (moderate, calm, trim 75kg).
Credible (considered & committed).
I believe (love & trust) 
In life (serve life, study life, live).
In myself (grow without harm).
In others (grow them).
In beauty (protect & grow it).
I will
Serve life (trust life, survive and thrive, live).
Contribute my best to life (grow all).
Do with love what feels right (in sync).
Lead, influence, or let go (never worry).
Say, what's needed & why (inform clearly)


Saturday, February 25, 2017

Who should lead?

Who has the most blood in the game? Who's putting the most on the line? Who stands to lose the most? The most committed, because they have the most in the game and the most to lose, should lead. Not the bossiest, not the loudest, but the most committed with the most on the line. They will make the right decisions and see the task through.


Saturday, January 7, 2017

The Lord's Prayer

"Heavenly Father, hallowed be your name", Y aH WeH who is Life. (We are here to live, and to love Life and all his children.)
"Your Kingdom come." (The Kingdom of Love).
"Your will be done." (That we all love each other.)
"On Earth as it is in Heaven." (In Heaven love rules, as it can on Earth.)

"Give us our daily bread." (The bread of life that we need daily - it is Life, it is God, the flesh of Jesus.)
"Forgive us our debts." (Our sins, our wrongs, any harm we do.)
"As we forgive our debtors." (Those who have sinned, wronged, harmed us.)
"And lead us not into temptation." (Acts that may cause us to harm ourselves or others like casual sex, harmful drugs and drinking.)
"But deliver us from harm." (Anything that harms us.)

God is Life. His Kingdom is Love. We are all his children and should love one another. The Holy Spirit is the Truth that we should all love each other which is what Jesus wanted us to remember by keeping this very simple principle simple. He didn't want all the details to be written down and argued over. He wanted the simple principle of loving Life (God) and each other to be easily remembered so they could be ('easily') followed.

Just a thought.


Sunday, August 2, 2015


Wisdom is not just about knowledge, it is also an attitude that we can never be certain about anything and that there is always more to learn.

This is also the spirit of scientific enquiry.

This attitude strongly suggests humility in the pursuit of all learning. An attitude which, unfortunately, many scientists and religious disciples seem to lack.

Neither scientists nor disciples can be certain of anything. As such, absolute certainty of faith in the existence or non-existence of God, or in any finding or theory (such as evolution), is impossible.

Likewise, the truth of any thought, testimony, observation, idea or scripture should always be subject to evaluation, interpretation, and replacement if better knowledge should come to light by discovery through observation, thought or divine inspiration.

And if an explanation, observation, idea or revelation doesn't seem right or doesn't fully explain what it seeks to, then it is ripe for replacement by an improved, more expansive and more correct explanation, observation, idea or revelation.


Saturday, August 1, 2015


I'm not looking for certainty through faith, I'm looking for certainty through knowledge. An unending search, as our stock of knowledge is always growing and changing. But that's the way I like it.


Saturday, May 23, 2015

Ancient DNA pinpoints Paleolithic liaison in Europe

Ancient DNA pinpoints Paleolithic liaison in Europe
Ann Gibbons

A young man who lived in Romania 37,000 to 42,000 years inherited as much as one-tenth of his DNA from a Neandertal ancestor, according to a new study of ancient DNA.

Ever since spelunkers found a robust jawbone in a cave in Romania in 2002, some paleoanthropologists have thought that its huge wisdom teeth and other features resembled those of Neandertals even though the fossil was a modern human. Now, by sequencing informative parts of the Romanian man's genome, an international team of researchers has found that he had inherited 4.8% to 11.3% of his genome from a Neandertal who lived only 200 years or so previously, according to a talk this month at Cold Spring Harbor Laboratory in New York.

The finding confirms that Neandertals interbred with modern humans more than once, and it is the first evidence that the two types of humans had a liaison in Europe.


Wednesday, February 20, 2013

How To Insert A New Blank Page On Your iPhone

This is if you want to insert a new blank page between iPhone pages so that you can easily manage, sort and order your iPhone app icons in the way most convenient to you.

I tried to search for an answer to this and couldn't find any that answered the question easily. A lot were about inserting an iPhone page that stayed blank, but this is about inserting a page between other pages so that you can sort you app icons onto that new page, keeping them up the front (without having to move every single icon down a page to make room - which would be a real pain if you've got a lot of icons).

Anyway, the solution is simple. Open your iPhone (or iPad) in iTunes. Go to the Apps tab. On your computer screen in iTunes you will see a horizontal column of iPhone screens in miniature. Scroll down this and you will see a grey iPhone screen at the bottom. You can drag this grey screen up through the column and put it wherever you would like a new blank screen. Then simply click on the screen from where you want to shift your icons. This will show that screen in larger size on the left of the miniature icons. Drag the icons you want to the new page you've created, and you're done!

Hopefully this will help the iPhone user who also asked this question here: http://www.ifans.com/forums/threads/insert-blank-page.309408/


Monday, November 19, 2012

Government & The Universal Income

We should not reduce the size of government, and expect the community or private sector to do more, without the introduction of a shared base income that enables people to do more.


Fear & The Public Sector

No one should have to fear being critical of the government or holding political opinions, public servants included. Everyone is entitled to have and express their views on how things should be done, and what is right and wrong, without the fear of retribution. Every human has the right to enter the debate.

These are rights that should be protected under public service Codes of Conduct, rather they are debased. They invoke another reason why a guaranteed income, universal income, or shared base income should be the right of everyone – as with it the damage that can occur from censor is mitigated.


Sunday, November 13, 2011

Response to Treasury's GMI Analysis

I'm quite pleased with this response to Treasury's analysis of a Guaranteed Minimum Income (GMI) - http://www.oursystem.info/2011/11/gmi-response-to-treasurys-economic.html


Monday, June 13, 2011

Children - Blessing Or Burden

I guess it’s whether you see children as a blessing or a burden that shapes you’re attitude as to whether they owe you anything or you owe them. They are always a blessing.


Why Should I (Tell A Story)?

Why should I tell a story? Why should I do that? If I was a natural story-teller, maybe I would do that. But I just want to live my life, that’s a story in itself, but I don’t want to tell it. It’s hard enough just trying to be me, let alone writing about semi-imaginary others.


Tragic & Romantic

The two are closely related, in fact, I think a truly romantic story cannot do without a dose of tragedy, because adversity is what make romance poignant and real.

There has to be adversity, there has to be some struggle, otherwise achievements lack meaning and satisfaction.


Saturday, May 21, 2011

Confidence In Wellington City Council Reinforced

I am actually amazed, even flabbergasted that Wellington City Council rectified not collecting our recycling bin earlier this week. They actually came round and collected and emptied the bin from where it was beside our house (as we had brought it back from beside the road when it wasn't collected on the day).

This is the service I 'expect' when something goes wrong, ie a full rectification of the error. I just didn't expect to get it from the Council (esp. not when I complained via their website - http://www.wellington.govt.nz/haveyoursay/complaints/complaintsform/form.php - you're normally hear nothing don't you?). Is it now really safe for me to have full confidence in the Council, in local government? Perhaps not yet, but this experience has certainly increased it.


Different Google Logo Designs Showing On iGoogle

I would like to be able to see the various Google logo designs they have on the original Google search page on iGoogle, but there's no iGoogle design that enables this - frustrating. Please tell me if one's ever made.


Wednesday, May 11, 2011

Official Website Button For Linking To Your LinkedIn Profile

This is the link for the official LinkedIn buttons linking your website, blogsite (Blogger, Wordpress, and so on) to your profile - http://www.linkedin.com/profile?promoteProfile=


Twitter Follow Me Buttons (Official)

You can find the official 'follow me on Twitter' buttons for your website or blogsite (Blogger, Wordpress, etc) here: http://twitter.com/about/resources/buttons


Tuesday, May 10, 2011

All Wound Up, But What To Unwind On?

I have this feeling like I should go for a walk and exercise or something, but a powerful unwillingness to do this or anything. What am I meant to be doing right now? I just can't make it out. I'm all wound up but with nothing to unwind on.